“This week has seemed like a month, and today was
more than a full week!” is what I told my friend yesterday. So much has
happened this week. Not in a running around, knocking everything off your to-do
list kind of week, but an eye-opening, challenging, bring-you-to-your knees,
didn’t-know-I-was-ready-for-that-God kind of week. It wasn’t even major events-although a couple were- it was more of situations that are just hard and need deep love, forgiveness,
compassion and prayer.
By 4:30 Friday afternoon, I couldn’t think, talk
or pray. I had no words just a broken heart and flowing tears. So I decided to
put on my tennis-shoes, put in my headphones and go run. About 30 minutes later,
I ended up in the cemetery. I found a tree where I could watch the golden rays
of the setting-sun cover the mountains. I still had no words. So I just sat.
In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our
weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself
intercedes for us through wordless groans. And he who searches our hearts knows
the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in
accordance with the will of God. Romans 8:26-27
See. I told you Romans 8 was speaking to me this
week… I switched playlists and ended up with Where I Belong by Building 429. Listen along HERE.
Sometimes it feels like I'm watching from the outside
Sometimes it feels like I'm breathing but am I alive
I won't keep searching for answers that aren't here to find
All I know is I'm not home yet
This is not where I belong
Take this world and give me Jesus
This is not where I belong
So when the walls come falling down on me
And when I'm lost in the current of a raging sea
I have this blessed assurance holding me.
All I know is I'm not home yet
This is not where I belong
Take this world and give me Jesus
This is not where I belong
When the earth shakes I wanna be found in You
When the lights fade I wanna be found in You
All I know is I'm not home yet
This is not where I belong
Take this world and give me Jesus
This is not where I belong
[x2]
Where I belong, where I belong
Where I belong,
where I belong
I finally could put into words what my heart was
aching for… Heaven. Where we are free. Free from hurt. Free from pain.
Free from guilt. Free from addictions. Free from physical limitations. Free
from heartache. All I know is I’m not
home yet. This is not where I belong. Take
this world and give me Jesus. This is not where I belong! More of Him
is what we need. More Jesus in every part of our daily lives and in us. He is
the part of this world that is not messed up.
Please join me in prayer…
-For the church in Jinogeta and it’s leaders
-Friends struggling with addiction
-Brothers and sisters who feel hurt and rejected
-For my family (especially my grandmother) as we
adjust to a new normal without Aunt Pat
-God’s peace to be tangible
-A spirit of forgiveness
-Wisdom as we all try to serve our Father the
best we can
Hi Tinkerbell, I have had days like that, you did the right thing, you removed yourself from your thoughts, played wonderful music and found your way to God in prayer. This is one of my favorite songs. I listen to it all the time. If you get internet easily, the radio station is on the web 104.9 the river. It is a Christian station based in Columbus. Love you and praying for healing for all you requested. :) De De
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