Sunday, October 20, 2013

I Refuse


October 20, 2013

We serve an awesome God. Who created us to be unique individuals with His gifts to shine His glory. Wow. The Creator of the world took the time to design each of us and loves us unconditionally. I don’t know about you, but that blows me away when I sit and reflect on that. He is full of blessings and lessons to teach us, his beloved children, if we listen to him. Now, I know there are many times I’ve said, “God. I don’t know how to do that,” or “God, you know someone else would be much better handling that.” But through careful prayer and advice from family, I am saying, “Yes, God!” to his most recent opportunity.

Where to begin? After returning from Zambia in August and processing the experience, I knew I wanted to continue pursuing a way to work with children in a mission/ministry setting. I love the daycare that I work in, but I longed for the children that needed someone else fighting for them. So I began talking with Mr. Benny, the director of MisiĆ³n Para Cristo. Now, two months later: letters have been written, I am studying Spanish, and spending as much time with my family as I can… because I am going to Nicaragua to work with Benny and Donna Baker and serve the children in Jinotega and the surrounding communities for 11 months. After first working with them in 2007, I loved their mission and the beautiful people they served. Since that first trip, I’ve been able to return 3 more times with different groups and slightly different purposes.

This time I will be focusing on the ways the mission encourages the children. Between their school, pre-schools, children’s ministry and adopt-a-child program, I will be assisting the Nicaraguans to find my niche of service. There are lots of unknowns, but I am confident in the fact that God knows me and will be with me each and every day. This song has become my theme and my prayer for the month. Click HERE if you want to listen along. It’s about 3 and a half minutes, and in my unbiased opinion it is completely worth it..

Sometimes I, I just wanna close my eyes
And act like everyone's alright
well no they're not
This world needs God, but it's easier to stand and watch
I could say a prayer and just move on
like nothin's wrong
But I refuse
cause I don't wanna live like I don't care
I don't wanna say another empty prayer
Oh I refuse, to sit around and wait for someone else
To do what God has called me to do myself
Oh I could choose not to move
but I refuse
I can hear the least of these
cryin' out so desperately
and I know we are the hands and feet of You oh God
So if You say move
it's time for me to follow through
and do what I was made to do
and show them who You are
Cause I don't wanna live like I don't care
I don't wanna say another empty prayer
Oh I refuse to sit around
and wait for someone else
to do what God has called me to do myself
Oh I could choose
not to move
but I refuse
to stand and watch the weary and lost
cry out for help
I refuse
to turn my back
and try and act like all is well
I refuse
to stay and change
to wait another day
to die to myself
I refuse
to make one more excuse
cause I don't wanna live like I don't care
I don't wanna say another empty prayer
Oh I refuse
to sit around and wait for someone else
to do what God has called me to do myself
oh I could choose
not to move
but I refuse
I refuse
I refuse
I Refuse, by Josh Wilson

2 comments:

  1. I can not wait!! I'm so excited for the adventures and the future that God has planned for us!

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  2. Colette, you are truly a gift from God, he has worked out his plan for you and you are depending on his guidance. This song is one of my favorites. We listen to 104.9 The River, you can download the app and hear it online anytime, lots of similar songs. So proud of you, my heart is overflowing with the knowledge of the gifts you will bring to all who you get to share your time with. God is Good and you will truly be sharing his love with these kids and I know you will be great. Stay safe and healthy! Lots of love, Dena

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