I Refuse

October 20, 2013

We serve an awesome God. Who created us to be unique individuals with His gifts to shine His glory. Wow. The Creator of the world took the time to design each of us and loves us unconditionally. I don’t know about you, but that blows me away when I sit and reflect on that. He is full of blessings and lessons to teach us, his beloved children, if we listen to him. Now, I know there are many times I’ve said, “God. I don’t know how to do that,” or “God, you know someone else would be much better handling that.” But through careful prayer and advice from family, I am saying, “Yes, God!” to his most recent opportunity.

Where to begin? After returning from Zambia in August and processing the experience, I knew I wanted to continue pursuing a way to work with children in a mission/ministry setting. I love the daycare that I work in, but I longed for the children that needed someone else fighting for them. So I began talking with Mr. Benny, the director of Misión Para Cristo. Now, two months later: letters have been written, I am studying Spanish, and spending as much time with my family as I can… because I am going to Nicaragua to work with Benny and Donna Baker and serve the children in Jinotega and the surrounding communities for 11 months. After first working with them in 2007, I loved their mission and the beautiful people they served. Since that first trip, I’ve been able to return 3 more times with different groups and slightly different purposes.

This time I will be focusing on the ways the mission encourages the children. Between their school, pre-schools, children’s ministry and adopt-a-child program, I will be assisting the Nicaraguans to find my niche of service. There are lots of unknowns, but I am confident in the fact that God knows me and will be with me each and every day. This song has become my theme and my prayer for the month. Click HERE if you want to listen along. It’s about 3 and a half minutes, and in my unbiased opinion it is completely worth it..

Sometimes I, I just wanna close my eyes

And act like everyone's alright

well no they're not

This world needs God, but it's easier to stand and watch

I could say a prayer and just move on

like nothin's wrong

But I refuse

cause I don't wanna live like I don't care

I don't wanna say another empty prayer

Oh I refuse, to sit around and wait for someone else

To do what God has called me to do myself

Oh I could choose not to move

but I refuse

I can hear the least of these

cryin' out so desperately

and I know we are the hands and feet of You oh God

So if You say move

it's time for me to follow through

and do what I was made to do

and show them who You are

Cause I don't wanna live like I don't care

I don't wanna say another empty prayer

Oh I refuse to sit around

and wait for someone else

to do what God has called me to do myself

Oh I could choose

not to move

but I refuse

to stand and watch the weary and lost

cry out for help

I refuse

to turn my back

and try and act like all is well

I refuse

to stay and change

to wait another day

to die to myself

I refuse

to make one more excuse

cause I don't wanna live like I don't care

I don't wanna say another empty prayer

Oh I refuse

to sit around and wait for someone else

to do what God has called me to do myself

oh I could choose

not to move

but I refuse

I refuse

I refuse

I Refuse, by Josh Wilson